One of the most beautiful things happened to me in past few months...in fact, in all of my years of living, this has truly been the best thing to date. One might be preparing to hear that I am engaged (absolutely not) or something of the likes. Are you ready for this one? I was LAID OFF!!!!! Here is how beautiful God's story can be when we step out of the way...
I was a pharmaceutical representative for Novartis. Novartis is a great, large, world pharma power, that I had the privelege of being a part of. It was never something that I loved. My days were filled with attempting to see people (physicians) that had no real desire to see me. I drove in my car for countless hours, played caterer to offices on one too many days, spent large amounts of money to attempt to get two seconds of time, and plotted how I could better deal with rejection. The job, as gracious as the pay and benefits might be, was not my picture of fulfillment.
One day, I decided to try something. Not a novel idea that I thought of, but it was something that I say with a cowering head, that I had never truly done before. I decided that I was handing the pencil to my life story over to the best author of all times, God. I prayed, about two months ago, that he would change my life in some way. Here is what happened in God's story for my life:
1) Two weeks after that prayer, I was told I was laid off. I was given one final month of work.
2) I, for all the final weeks, was quite possibly the happiest person you ever met. I had an overwhelming sense of security because I knew, more than I have ever known anything, that the Creator of this Universe was writing my story.
3) We were told at the beginning of our lay-off, that there was to be no severance or bonuses paid out. Meaning, we would be broke effective November 17th. Must admit, stressed about this for about...2 seconds. God was in charge.
4) We got a call on the last week of work saying that we were going to be getting paid not one, but two full bonuses!!!! That is more then we make in 2.5 months!
5) God has given me an open book, started with his artistic writing style, to begin what is to be the rest of a fantastic life. I feel as though he just handed me a stack of paper that is 10,000 sheets high and said, "why not?"
6) A few of the additional kickers to what he had done: One of my doctors happens to have a son pretty high up at Microsoft. He for some reason thought that I was meant to be more in life and got me in contact with his son for a career change (I will keep you up to date). I also have five interviews within the next week and I, at the very young age of 26, will possibly have to decide between five offers...seriously, God's story of my life has overwhelmed me. He doesn't just do things, he does AMAZING things.
I have been givem the luxury that so many people never have. I am what I like to call semi-retired and I can now pick, choose, deliberate about anything I want. Career, where I move next, future schooling, books I want to read, places I want to travel (tickets are only $440 to Munich right now), etc.
Here is the best part....let me give you what my measly plan was:
1) Continue in my less than fulfilling job.
2) Hope that something a "little" better came along.
3) Live a less than perfect plan of existence and just wait it out. Maybe something would change.
This is the beauty of God's planning. His architecture and his writing abilities are so far out of our grasps that even a dreamer like me, didn't give Him close to the credit that He deserved. You see, He is a Great God, that does Great things, when we give him the Great Chance to be our Planner.
I dare you, just to see what He can do with your small plans. He created this earth, what more can He do with your life?
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
One good Bachelor...
In reference to ABC's show, The Bachelor: After the Final Rose:
To anyone out there who happens to watch the Bachelor (I for some great reason find it a show full of relational debates, standards issues and the likes), I hope you watched tonight's After the Rose. Ironic actually because no rose was given to either girl on the season finale that occurred last night. Brad, the Bachelor, stated that this was because he didn't feel that in his heart he was meant to be with either of the two ladies. He attempted to do this in the best possible way by simply being honest but naturally, TV break-ups are never seamless and pose great risks.
What breaks my heart more than either girls' broken heart, is that women have come to think that a honest man like this is rude, mean, cruel, confused, etc. See, any woman on earth should want to have a friend like Brad who could tell you, the "girl" friend, that you should walk away from the boy you were dating because he was not falling in love with you. Many people get into relationships and never get out because they find them to be comfortable. These stories become full of the girls that say they will leave their man at 30 if he doesn't propose. They never do...they buy the house, get the dog, and never get the ring. All because, someone was not honest at the very beginning of a very comfortable period of time. People are led on by a promise of something that never existed in the first place. Fairy tales do exist, it just depends on if you are allowing your life to be one of them.
One of the ladies kept stating that he wasn't giving her an answer to why he didn't want to even continue dating her. She didn't understand how he couldn't want to keep trying it out to see if it might change. The fact of the matter was that the only answer she was willing to consider was one that involved him, her and lifetime together. He gracefully bowed out and said that he wasn't her fairytale and that she deserved a man who could have stood there on that day and solidly stated that she was his one and only.
Brad, unlike many of the men in America who will make a commitment to cohabiting years before marriage, is willing to say that his heart doesn't feel it. That kind of honesty from the get go (for those of you that forget,the show is ONLY six weeks long), or not too long into a relationship, is something that could actually create millions of great woman.
For me, I know right away if something is or isn't. It's not being rude, or not giving things a chance. My dear ladies out there, it is called INTUITION: sadly a rarely used word in today's society. That is right, we might actually know our own hearts if we ever stopped to realize that to just have the desire to fall in love was not enough. It needs to have every bit of emotion, passion, "I seriously cannot live my life without this person" infatuation that a true lifetime calls for. Men like Brad are the men that make us move on, realize that something greater is out there. And for heaven's sake, please do not go man hunting as your job. Go get your master's degree, your jurisdoctorate, take a cruise around the world. Discover why any man who cannot quickly fall in love with you is not worth you skipping out on a summer in Europe or winter of skiing in Austria.
To anyone out there who happens to watch the Bachelor (I for some great reason find it a show full of relational debates, standards issues and the likes), I hope you watched tonight's After the Rose. Ironic actually because no rose was given to either girl on the season finale that occurred last night. Brad, the Bachelor, stated that this was because he didn't feel that in his heart he was meant to be with either of the two ladies. He attempted to do this in the best possible way by simply being honest but naturally, TV break-ups are never seamless and pose great risks.
What breaks my heart more than either girls' broken heart, is that women have come to think that a honest man like this is rude, mean, cruel, confused, etc. See, any woman on earth should want to have a friend like Brad who could tell you, the "girl" friend, that you should walk away from the boy you were dating because he was not falling in love with you. Many people get into relationships and never get out because they find them to be comfortable. These stories become full of the girls that say they will leave their man at 30 if he doesn't propose. They never do...they buy the house, get the dog, and never get the ring. All because, someone was not honest at the very beginning of a very comfortable period of time. People are led on by a promise of something that never existed in the first place. Fairy tales do exist, it just depends on if you are allowing your life to be one of them.
One of the ladies kept stating that he wasn't giving her an answer to why he didn't want to even continue dating her. She didn't understand how he couldn't want to keep trying it out to see if it might change. The fact of the matter was that the only answer she was willing to consider was one that involved him, her and lifetime together. He gracefully bowed out and said that he wasn't her fairytale and that she deserved a man who could have stood there on that day and solidly stated that she was his one and only.
Brad, unlike many of the men in America who will make a commitment to cohabiting years before marriage, is willing to say that his heart doesn't feel it. That kind of honesty from the get go (for those of you that forget,the show is ONLY six weeks long), or not too long into a relationship, is something that could actually create millions of great woman.
For me, I know right away if something is or isn't. It's not being rude, or not giving things a chance. My dear ladies out there, it is called INTUITION: sadly a rarely used word in today's society. That is right, we might actually know our own hearts if we ever stopped to realize that to just have the desire to fall in love was not enough. It needs to have every bit of emotion, passion, "I seriously cannot live my life without this person" infatuation that a true lifetime calls for. Men like Brad are the men that make us move on, realize that something greater is out there. And for heaven's sake, please do not go man hunting as your job. Go get your master's degree, your jurisdoctorate, take a cruise around the world. Discover why any man who cannot quickly fall in love with you is not worth you skipping out on a summer in Europe or winter of skiing in Austria.
We believe in a Great God, let Him write your Great Love Story.
(and thank Him for men that are willing to tell us we deserve better)
Friday, June 15, 2007
An Update about Me!
Never thought I would be a blogger! So, here it goes!
I moved to Aspen after I graduated Chico State nearly three years ago. Ended with a combo of biology and sociology which will hopefully, one day, lead to a doctorate in medicinal sociology (emphasis in diseases in third world/underdeveloped countries). Not too sure when that will happen because there are so many things to do! While in Aspen I worked for Ralph Lauren, many stories, and was getting ready to move to NYC when I decided to take a detour and ended up in Portland, OR...I love being unpredictable!
Now I work for Novartis Pharmaceuticals as a drug representative and I absolutely love my job. It certainly isn't as glamourous as some assume but it is a job with many, many blessings. I live in a gorgeous home with three other girls, one of which being my sister. Life has become beautifully perfect and I am now quite alright with staying in on a Friday night and just relaxing...I do believe that doesn't make me sound old but rather that it is a great depiction of contentment.
I am at this time single (which is always a question) and I absolutely love it. Until I meet someone that I know I can't live without, I will continue to enjoy the beyond fabulous life I lead. Full of: travelling, writing, reading, great friends, an amazing career, and zealous dreaming.
Would love to know what everyone else is up to and what life has given them.
I moved to Aspen after I graduated Chico State nearly three years ago. Ended with a combo of biology and sociology which will hopefully, one day, lead to a doctorate in medicinal sociology (emphasis in diseases in third world/underdeveloped countries). Not too sure when that will happen because there are so many things to do! While in Aspen I worked for Ralph Lauren, many stories, and was getting ready to move to NYC when I decided to take a detour and ended up in Portland, OR...I love being unpredictable!
Now I work for Novartis Pharmaceuticals as a drug representative and I absolutely love my job. It certainly isn't as glamourous as some assume but it is a job with many, many blessings. I live in a gorgeous home with three other girls, one of which being my sister. Life has become beautifully perfect and I am now quite alright with staying in on a Friday night and just relaxing...I do believe that doesn't make me sound old but rather that it is a great depiction of contentment.
I am at this time single (which is always a question) and I absolutely love it. Until I meet someone that I know I can't live without, I will continue to enjoy the beyond fabulous life I lead. Full of: travelling, writing, reading, great friends, an amazing career, and zealous dreaming.
Would love to know what everyone else is up to and what life has given them.
Preface: Heart Murmurs: Moral Relativity
Just a little something that I have been working on in my spare time...this subject has always held my heart and I really hope that it tugs at your heart strings as well.
Heart Murmurs: Moral Relativity
This book is about you, me and finding the medicine for a heart that murmurs.
Preface:
On a recent business trip, I was lucky enough to be placed in Orlando, Florida for three weeks. Anyone who knows me is well aware that my heart and mind are often influenced by anything Disney. For instance, when I was a volleyball coach at the ripe age of 19, I received a Disney Princess poster, a Disney Prince Ken doll, and a Disney Princess picture frame for my gifts at the end of the season. See…not too heard to figure out my aforementioned excitement by this business destination.
One evening on this trip, one of my girlfriends and I stayed to watch the amazing fireworks display that occurs consistently at 9pm in the Magic Kingdom. When the first song plays, “Once Upon a Dream,” you can look around and see faint sparkles in the eyes of any girl who ever dreamed of being rescued by her Prince Charming, myself included. Within two seconds, my eyes had welled up and I had a flash of myself as a little girl where I was the princess and my prince had rescued me from the travails of the world. My heart had been released from the pulls, tears and pressure of the world and my Prince Charming was to be accredited for this release.
In a quick check back to reality, I wondered where this little dreamer had gone inside of me. She, me at the younger years, would accept no man who wasn’t kind-hearted, full of strength, passionate, and loving. And here is a thought that I am sure most will agree with: There wasn’t even an instance of this princess ever being rescued by anything less than a Prince Charming. That is what I needed and that is what I was to get. It wasn’t selfishness. It was simple mathematics. One plus one equals two. Nothing less.
Where, my question begins, does this little girl full of dreams, ambitions, and true heart-felt desires, disappear to? What in this world makes us settle for the peddler on the street who doesn’t happen to have any sense of saving us from the travails of this world? Where is the man who would stand up to the intruders in the face of sorrow and defend our hearts? When do we let go of being “the princess?”
Heart Murmurs: Moral Relativity
This book is about you, me and finding the medicine for a heart that murmurs.
Preface:
On a recent business trip, I was lucky enough to be placed in Orlando, Florida for three weeks. Anyone who knows me is well aware that my heart and mind are often influenced by anything Disney. For instance, when I was a volleyball coach at the ripe age of 19, I received a Disney Princess poster, a Disney Prince Ken doll, and a Disney Princess picture frame for my gifts at the end of the season. See…not too heard to figure out my aforementioned excitement by this business destination.
One evening on this trip, one of my girlfriends and I stayed to watch the amazing fireworks display that occurs consistently at 9pm in the Magic Kingdom. When the first song plays, “Once Upon a Dream,” you can look around and see faint sparkles in the eyes of any girl who ever dreamed of being rescued by her Prince Charming, myself included. Within two seconds, my eyes had welled up and I had a flash of myself as a little girl where I was the princess and my prince had rescued me from the travails of the world. My heart had been released from the pulls, tears and pressure of the world and my Prince Charming was to be accredited for this release.
In a quick check back to reality, I wondered where this little dreamer had gone inside of me. She, me at the younger years, would accept no man who wasn’t kind-hearted, full of strength, passionate, and loving. And here is a thought that I am sure most will agree with: There wasn’t even an instance of this princess ever being rescued by anything less than a Prince Charming. That is what I needed and that is what I was to get. It wasn’t selfishness. It was simple mathematics. One plus one equals two. Nothing less.
Where, my question begins, does this little girl full of dreams, ambitions, and true heart-felt desires, disappear to? What in this world makes us settle for the peddler on the street who doesn’t happen to have any sense of saving us from the travails of this world? Where is the man who would stand up to the intruders in the face of sorrow and defend our hearts? When do we let go of being “the princess?”
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