I think a child might be able to answer this question that I thought of the other day: How come birds do not fly into each other??? Seriously, have you ever thought of that? There are millions upon millions up there and they never run into each other. If we are superior beings, how do we get into thousands of car accidents everyday?
Just a thought...also, how come bees do not hit each other also?
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Our deepest fears...
Read the entire next quote and then take a deep breath afterward...it will make sense.
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you NOT to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won't feel unsure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. As we let our own Light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. " Marianne Williamson.
I get tears every time I read that quote. I have never been one to get depressed because I did too much or was too tired from working too hard...I get depressed when I know beyond the shadow of a doubt that God made me for much more than who I am at that moment.
Most recently I lost my job which, given the pure enigma I felt in it being gone, was apparently making me horribly depressed. When the job was gone, it was as though God said to me: "My beautiful child, I have created so much more for you and since you aren't going to do anything about it, my love for you will get rid of it." He knew that I was meant for so much more and since then, I have rested in His arms each day in prayer asking Him who He wants me to be. When I sell myself short or do things only half-way, I only sell God short because He has given me (and each and everyone one of us) a chance to change this world.
On that note; pray often, dream big, and have faith in our Creator.
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you NOT to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won't feel unsure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. As we let our own Light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. " Marianne Williamson.
I get tears every time I read that quote. I have never been one to get depressed because I did too much or was too tired from working too hard...I get depressed when I know beyond the shadow of a doubt that God made me for much more than who I am at that moment.
Most recently I lost my job which, given the pure enigma I felt in it being gone, was apparently making me horribly depressed. When the job was gone, it was as though God said to me: "My beautiful child, I have created so much more for you and since you aren't going to do anything about it, my love for you will get rid of it." He knew that I was meant for so much more and since then, I have rested in His arms each day in prayer asking Him who He wants me to be. When I sell myself short or do things only half-way, I only sell God short because He has given me (and each and everyone one of us) a chance to change this world.
On that note; pray often, dream big, and have faith in our Creator.
Thursday, December 6, 2007
Worth the wait: great love.
It's amazing to think of all of the things that we are willing to wait for in life. Let me just make a list to reiterate the point (feel free to add):
1) a new I-Pod
2) a new Nintendo/Wii/Xbox/PSP, etc.
3) a vacation
4) a movie
5) a movie to come out on DVD
6) a sporting event
7) 401k/roth/hedge fund maturation
7) ...
We are able to wait for quite a few things that we know will provide more pleasure, excitement, money, and fulfillment. Myself, being 27 years old as of last week, has seen so many people wait for so many things. Sadly, there is one thing that very few people wait for.
Great love.
That's right. Not just “love”-the one you see on Friends or any other large sitcom, but "great" love. Also, not the one that I have often replaced with lust: the first time you see someone that is completely wrong for you but you are greatly attracted to that person. I can’t tell you how many times I have tried to make those lustful situations become a great nothing. (Word for the wise: you can only make something great if there is something to work with.)
I have always believed in it because I was raised in a family that followed after the greatest illustrator and perfector of this great love, Jesus Christ. Whether or not you believe, I can promise you that a belief in Jesus definitely raises your standards and rests your head very softly on your pillow every night knowing that grace is new every morning. My parents taught unconditional love and more importantly, practiced it. So many people enter relationships to have just "love." Something like great love seems to be too much to wait for and the risk is apparently high because it involves time (in a plastic surgery sensitive society, time and gravity seem to be our enemies). I guess we wait for the new IPOD, XBox, sporting event, etc. because we know it will eventually come. There is proof in the marketing that it will be there one day.
The marketing I follow is a slight bit different. It is an antiquated yet modern book that holds in itself 66 other books on that same subject, Great Love. The Bible, something old that holds something new for any heart that is willing to find it. We are an instant gratification society: probably the reason that sex tends to constitute a relationship (don’t worry, that will be touched on later). The Bible talks about this amazing, sacrificial, unconditional, unexplainable love for thousands of pages with personal “great love” letters from the Great God.
I have my doubts in this wait for Great Love but that is only because this world doesn’t know how to believe in anything. Luckily, my doubts are overshadowed by faith. Sometimes I try to create love (not great love, just love), from nothing at all because I want to feel that emotion. Of course, settling for just love leaves me with just that. Nothing “great,” just love by itself in a normal, everyday world sort of way. It is in those moments where I have to pray hard and remind myself why I wait for this thing called Great Love. I wait because I don't think the Bible would exist if this idea of Great Love was not real. Also, I believe in greatness because it is part of a system: below average, average, great. Well, trust me, I will wait for the best of the best even if it takes all of my time. I will travel the world, take any job I want, make great friends, fall in love with fashion trends, read and pray my way through a great life that will hopefully, one day, be interrupted by Great Love.
It does exist. I don’t read the fairy tales just because it was something to do when I was young…I STILL read them because reaching for something great makes my life close to ethereal. I have seen certain friends that have this Great Love and it makes love look punitive in comparison.
My story is written by God’s highly capable hands and in such craftsmanship, “Great” is the only thing that is allowed.
Greatness is great. Average is average. I am not a brain surgeon but I am pretty sure I would choose the former versus the latter.
“Life itself is the most wonderful fairy tale.” Hans Christian Andersen.
Are you willing to live it?
1) a new I-Pod
2) a new Nintendo/Wii/Xbox/PSP, etc.
3) a vacation
4) a movie
5) a movie to come out on DVD
6) a sporting event
7) 401k/roth/hedge fund maturation
7) ...
We are able to wait for quite a few things that we know will provide more pleasure, excitement, money, and fulfillment. Myself, being 27 years old as of last week, has seen so many people wait for so many things. Sadly, there is one thing that very few people wait for.
Great love.
That's right. Not just “love”-the one you see on Friends or any other large sitcom, but "great" love. Also, not the one that I have often replaced with lust: the first time you see someone that is completely wrong for you but you are greatly attracted to that person. I can’t tell you how many times I have tried to make those lustful situations become a great nothing. (Word for the wise: you can only make something great if there is something to work with.)
I have always believed in it because I was raised in a family that followed after the greatest illustrator and perfector of this great love, Jesus Christ. Whether or not you believe, I can promise you that a belief in Jesus definitely raises your standards and rests your head very softly on your pillow every night knowing that grace is new every morning. My parents taught unconditional love and more importantly, practiced it. So many people enter relationships to have just "love." Something like great love seems to be too much to wait for and the risk is apparently high because it involves time (in a plastic surgery sensitive society, time and gravity seem to be our enemies). I guess we wait for the new IPOD, XBox, sporting event, etc. because we know it will eventually come. There is proof in the marketing that it will be there one day.
The marketing I follow is a slight bit different. It is an antiquated yet modern book that holds in itself 66 other books on that same subject, Great Love. The Bible, something old that holds something new for any heart that is willing to find it. We are an instant gratification society: probably the reason that sex tends to constitute a relationship (don’t worry, that will be touched on later). The Bible talks about this amazing, sacrificial, unconditional, unexplainable love for thousands of pages with personal “great love” letters from the Great God.
I have my doubts in this wait for Great Love but that is only because this world doesn’t know how to believe in anything. Luckily, my doubts are overshadowed by faith. Sometimes I try to create love (not great love, just love), from nothing at all because I want to feel that emotion. Of course, settling for just love leaves me with just that. Nothing “great,” just love by itself in a normal, everyday world sort of way. It is in those moments where I have to pray hard and remind myself why I wait for this thing called Great Love. I wait because I don't think the Bible would exist if this idea of Great Love was not real. Also, I believe in greatness because it is part of a system: below average, average, great. Well, trust me, I will wait for the best of the best even if it takes all of my time. I will travel the world, take any job I want, make great friends, fall in love with fashion trends, read and pray my way through a great life that will hopefully, one day, be interrupted by Great Love.
It does exist. I don’t read the fairy tales just because it was something to do when I was young…I STILL read them because reaching for something great makes my life close to ethereal. I have seen certain friends that have this Great Love and it makes love look punitive in comparison.
My story is written by God’s highly capable hands and in such craftsmanship, “Great” is the only thing that is allowed.
Greatness is great. Average is average. I am not a brain surgeon but I am pretty sure I would choose the former versus the latter.
“Life itself is the most wonderful fairy tale.” Hans Christian Andersen.
Are you willing to live it?
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
Red Light!
Okay, so road rager I am not. Need us not forget that in my last job I drove for nearly eight hours out of the day. I am pretty sure that one of the job requirements was to be a person without road rage...needless to say, I do have my pet peeves.
But, as life goes, God was bound to teach me a lesson in driving and how I am in no means more holier than another.
Running red lights is the one that will get me going. In Oregon people tend to not choose speeding but rather chooose running red lights as their violation of choice. I was pointing this out to many people over the past weekend and announcing my disturbances with these individuals (BTW: I can statistically prove that most of them drive mini-vans). This was until I was in a rush today, around 4:35 and needed to catch (whatever that means) the light. I entered it as it was yellow and naturally exited while it was red and the next light had turned green.
God: "Any comments, Anna?"
Anna: "Absolutely not, I apologize."
You see, even in the smallest things I often find myself believing that I have done something better or larger than others. It is often at that point that I realize that is what God has called me to do and in His book, our best works are nothing. So, I will continue on my driving way, sans automobile, and thank God for his Good Graces versus getting amped up about little things that I will undoubtedly commit myself.
But, as life goes, God was bound to teach me a lesson in driving and how I am in no means more holier than another.
Running red lights is the one that will get me going. In Oregon people tend to not choose speeding but rather chooose running red lights as their violation of choice. I was pointing this out to many people over the past weekend and announcing my disturbances with these individuals (BTW: I can statistically prove that most of them drive mini-vans). This was until I was in a rush today, around 4:35 and needed to catch (whatever that means) the light. I entered it as it was yellow and naturally exited while it was red and the next light had turned green.
God: "Any comments, Anna?"
Anna: "Absolutely not, I apologize."
You see, even in the smallest things I often find myself believing that I have done something better or larger than others. It is often at that point that I realize that is what God has called me to do and in His book, our best works are nothing. So, I will continue on my driving way, sans automobile, and thank God for his Good Graces versus getting amped up about little things that I will undoubtedly commit myself.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
God's greatness in our little minds...
One of the most beautiful things happened to me in past few months...in fact, in all of my years of living, this has truly been the best thing to date. One might be preparing to hear that I am engaged (absolutely not) or something of the likes. Are you ready for this one? I was LAID OFF!!!!! Here is how beautiful God's story can be when we step out of the way...
I was a pharmaceutical representative for Novartis. Novartis is a great, large, world pharma power, that I had the privelege of being a part of. It was never something that I loved. My days were filled with attempting to see people (physicians) that had no real desire to see me. I drove in my car for countless hours, played caterer to offices on one too many days, spent large amounts of money to attempt to get two seconds of time, and plotted how I could better deal with rejection. The job, as gracious as the pay and benefits might be, was not my picture of fulfillment.
One day, I decided to try something. Not a novel idea that I thought of, but it was something that I say with a cowering head, that I had never truly done before. I decided that I was handing the pencil to my life story over to the best author of all times, God. I prayed, about two months ago, that he would change my life in some way. Here is what happened in God's story for my life:
1) Two weeks after that prayer, I was told I was laid off. I was given one final month of work.
2) I, for all the final weeks, was quite possibly the happiest person you ever met. I had an overwhelming sense of security because I knew, more than I have ever known anything, that the Creator of this Universe was writing my story.
3) We were told at the beginning of our lay-off, that there was to be no severance or bonuses paid out. Meaning, we would be broke effective November 17th. Must admit, stressed about this for about...2 seconds. God was in charge.
4) We got a call on the last week of work saying that we were going to be getting paid not one, but two full bonuses!!!! That is more then we make in 2.5 months!
5) God has given me an open book, started with his artistic writing style, to begin what is to be the rest of a fantastic life. I feel as though he just handed me a stack of paper that is 10,000 sheets high and said, "why not?"
6) A few of the additional kickers to what he had done: One of my doctors happens to have a son pretty high up at Microsoft. He for some reason thought that I was meant to be more in life and got me in contact with his son for a career change (I will keep you up to date). I also have five interviews within the next week and I, at the very young age of 26, will possibly have to decide between five offers...seriously, God's story of my life has overwhelmed me. He doesn't just do things, he does AMAZING things.
I have been givem the luxury that so many people never have. I am what I like to call semi-retired and I can now pick, choose, deliberate about anything I want. Career, where I move next, future schooling, books I want to read, places I want to travel (tickets are only $440 to Munich right now), etc.
Here is the best part....let me give you what my measly plan was:
1) Continue in my less than fulfilling job.
2) Hope that something a "little" better came along.
3) Live a less than perfect plan of existence and just wait it out. Maybe something would change.
This is the beauty of God's planning. His architecture and his writing abilities are so far out of our grasps that even a dreamer like me, didn't give Him close to the credit that He deserved. You see, He is a Great God, that does Great things, when we give him the Great Chance to be our Planner.
I dare you, just to see what He can do with your small plans. He created this earth, what more can He do with your life?
I was a pharmaceutical representative for Novartis. Novartis is a great, large, world pharma power, that I had the privelege of being a part of. It was never something that I loved. My days were filled with attempting to see people (physicians) that had no real desire to see me. I drove in my car for countless hours, played caterer to offices on one too many days, spent large amounts of money to attempt to get two seconds of time, and plotted how I could better deal with rejection. The job, as gracious as the pay and benefits might be, was not my picture of fulfillment.
One day, I decided to try something. Not a novel idea that I thought of, but it was something that I say with a cowering head, that I had never truly done before. I decided that I was handing the pencil to my life story over to the best author of all times, God. I prayed, about two months ago, that he would change my life in some way. Here is what happened in God's story for my life:
1) Two weeks after that prayer, I was told I was laid off. I was given one final month of work.
2) I, for all the final weeks, was quite possibly the happiest person you ever met. I had an overwhelming sense of security because I knew, more than I have ever known anything, that the Creator of this Universe was writing my story.
3) We were told at the beginning of our lay-off, that there was to be no severance or bonuses paid out. Meaning, we would be broke effective November 17th. Must admit, stressed about this for about...2 seconds. God was in charge.
4) We got a call on the last week of work saying that we were going to be getting paid not one, but two full bonuses!!!! That is more then we make in 2.5 months!
5) God has given me an open book, started with his artistic writing style, to begin what is to be the rest of a fantastic life. I feel as though he just handed me a stack of paper that is 10,000 sheets high and said, "why not?"
6) A few of the additional kickers to what he had done: One of my doctors happens to have a son pretty high up at Microsoft. He for some reason thought that I was meant to be more in life and got me in contact with his son for a career change (I will keep you up to date). I also have five interviews within the next week and I, at the very young age of 26, will possibly have to decide between five offers...seriously, God's story of my life has overwhelmed me. He doesn't just do things, he does AMAZING things.
I have been givem the luxury that so many people never have. I am what I like to call semi-retired and I can now pick, choose, deliberate about anything I want. Career, where I move next, future schooling, books I want to read, places I want to travel (tickets are only $440 to Munich right now), etc.
Here is the best part....let me give you what my measly plan was:
1) Continue in my less than fulfilling job.
2) Hope that something a "little" better came along.
3) Live a less than perfect plan of existence and just wait it out. Maybe something would change.
This is the beauty of God's planning. His architecture and his writing abilities are so far out of our grasps that even a dreamer like me, didn't give Him close to the credit that He deserved. You see, He is a Great God, that does Great things, when we give him the Great Chance to be our Planner.
I dare you, just to see what He can do with your small plans. He created this earth, what more can He do with your life?
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
One good Bachelor...
In reference to ABC's show, The Bachelor: After the Final Rose:
To anyone out there who happens to watch the Bachelor (I for some great reason find it a show full of relational debates, standards issues and the likes), I hope you watched tonight's After the Rose. Ironic actually because no rose was given to either girl on the season finale that occurred last night. Brad, the Bachelor, stated that this was because he didn't feel that in his heart he was meant to be with either of the two ladies. He attempted to do this in the best possible way by simply being honest but naturally, TV break-ups are never seamless and pose great risks.
What breaks my heart more than either girls' broken heart, is that women have come to think that a honest man like this is rude, mean, cruel, confused, etc. See, any woman on earth should want to have a friend like Brad who could tell you, the "girl" friend, that you should walk away from the boy you were dating because he was not falling in love with you. Many people get into relationships and never get out because they find them to be comfortable. These stories become full of the girls that say they will leave their man at 30 if he doesn't propose. They never do...they buy the house, get the dog, and never get the ring. All because, someone was not honest at the very beginning of a very comfortable period of time. People are led on by a promise of something that never existed in the first place. Fairy tales do exist, it just depends on if you are allowing your life to be one of them.
One of the ladies kept stating that he wasn't giving her an answer to why he didn't want to even continue dating her. She didn't understand how he couldn't want to keep trying it out to see if it might change. The fact of the matter was that the only answer she was willing to consider was one that involved him, her and lifetime together. He gracefully bowed out and said that he wasn't her fairytale and that she deserved a man who could have stood there on that day and solidly stated that she was his one and only.
Brad, unlike many of the men in America who will make a commitment to cohabiting years before marriage, is willing to say that his heart doesn't feel it. That kind of honesty from the get go (for those of you that forget,the show is ONLY six weeks long), or not too long into a relationship, is something that could actually create millions of great woman.
For me, I know right away if something is or isn't. It's not being rude, or not giving things a chance. My dear ladies out there, it is called INTUITION: sadly a rarely used word in today's society. That is right, we might actually know our own hearts if we ever stopped to realize that to just have the desire to fall in love was not enough. It needs to have every bit of emotion, passion, "I seriously cannot live my life without this person" infatuation that a true lifetime calls for. Men like Brad are the men that make us move on, realize that something greater is out there. And for heaven's sake, please do not go man hunting as your job. Go get your master's degree, your jurisdoctorate, take a cruise around the world. Discover why any man who cannot quickly fall in love with you is not worth you skipping out on a summer in Europe or winter of skiing in Austria.
To anyone out there who happens to watch the Bachelor (I for some great reason find it a show full of relational debates, standards issues and the likes), I hope you watched tonight's After the Rose. Ironic actually because no rose was given to either girl on the season finale that occurred last night. Brad, the Bachelor, stated that this was because he didn't feel that in his heart he was meant to be with either of the two ladies. He attempted to do this in the best possible way by simply being honest but naturally, TV break-ups are never seamless and pose great risks.
What breaks my heart more than either girls' broken heart, is that women have come to think that a honest man like this is rude, mean, cruel, confused, etc. See, any woman on earth should want to have a friend like Brad who could tell you, the "girl" friend, that you should walk away from the boy you were dating because he was not falling in love with you. Many people get into relationships and never get out because they find them to be comfortable. These stories become full of the girls that say they will leave their man at 30 if he doesn't propose. They never do...they buy the house, get the dog, and never get the ring. All because, someone was not honest at the very beginning of a very comfortable period of time. People are led on by a promise of something that never existed in the first place. Fairy tales do exist, it just depends on if you are allowing your life to be one of them.
One of the ladies kept stating that he wasn't giving her an answer to why he didn't want to even continue dating her. She didn't understand how he couldn't want to keep trying it out to see if it might change. The fact of the matter was that the only answer she was willing to consider was one that involved him, her and lifetime together. He gracefully bowed out and said that he wasn't her fairytale and that she deserved a man who could have stood there on that day and solidly stated that she was his one and only.
Brad, unlike many of the men in America who will make a commitment to cohabiting years before marriage, is willing to say that his heart doesn't feel it. That kind of honesty from the get go (for those of you that forget,the show is ONLY six weeks long), or not too long into a relationship, is something that could actually create millions of great woman.
For me, I know right away if something is or isn't. It's not being rude, or not giving things a chance. My dear ladies out there, it is called INTUITION: sadly a rarely used word in today's society. That is right, we might actually know our own hearts if we ever stopped to realize that to just have the desire to fall in love was not enough. It needs to have every bit of emotion, passion, "I seriously cannot live my life without this person" infatuation that a true lifetime calls for. Men like Brad are the men that make us move on, realize that something greater is out there. And for heaven's sake, please do not go man hunting as your job. Go get your master's degree, your jurisdoctorate, take a cruise around the world. Discover why any man who cannot quickly fall in love with you is not worth you skipping out on a summer in Europe or winter of skiing in Austria.
We believe in a Great God, let Him write your Great Love Story.
(and thank Him for men that are willing to tell us we deserve better)
Friday, June 15, 2007
An Update about Me!
Never thought I would be a blogger! So, here it goes!
I moved to Aspen after I graduated Chico State nearly three years ago. Ended with a combo of biology and sociology which will hopefully, one day, lead to a doctorate in medicinal sociology (emphasis in diseases in third world/underdeveloped countries). Not too sure when that will happen because there are so many things to do! While in Aspen I worked for Ralph Lauren, many stories, and was getting ready to move to NYC when I decided to take a detour and ended up in Portland, OR...I love being unpredictable!
Now I work for Novartis Pharmaceuticals as a drug representative and I absolutely love my job. It certainly isn't as glamourous as some assume but it is a job with many, many blessings. I live in a gorgeous home with three other girls, one of which being my sister. Life has become beautifully perfect and I am now quite alright with staying in on a Friday night and just relaxing...I do believe that doesn't make me sound old but rather that it is a great depiction of contentment.
I am at this time single (which is always a question) and I absolutely love it. Until I meet someone that I know I can't live without, I will continue to enjoy the beyond fabulous life I lead. Full of: travelling, writing, reading, great friends, an amazing career, and zealous dreaming.
Would love to know what everyone else is up to and what life has given them.
I moved to Aspen after I graduated Chico State nearly three years ago. Ended with a combo of biology and sociology which will hopefully, one day, lead to a doctorate in medicinal sociology (emphasis in diseases in third world/underdeveloped countries). Not too sure when that will happen because there are so many things to do! While in Aspen I worked for Ralph Lauren, many stories, and was getting ready to move to NYC when I decided to take a detour and ended up in Portland, OR...I love being unpredictable!
Now I work for Novartis Pharmaceuticals as a drug representative and I absolutely love my job. It certainly isn't as glamourous as some assume but it is a job with many, many blessings. I live in a gorgeous home with three other girls, one of which being my sister. Life has become beautifully perfect and I am now quite alright with staying in on a Friday night and just relaxing...I do believe that doesn't make me sound old but rather that it is a great depiction of contentment.
I am at this time single (which is always a question) and I absolutely love it. Until I meet someone that I know I can't live without, I will continue to enjoy the beyond fabulous life I lead. Full of: travelling, writing, reading, great friends, an amazing career, and zealous dreaming.
Would love to know what everyone else is up to and what life has given them.
Preface: Heart Murmurs: Moral Relativity
Just a little something that I have been working on in my spare time...this subject has always held my heart and I really hope that it tugs at your heart strings as well.
Heart Murmurs: Moral Relativity
This book is about you, me and finding the medicine for a heart that murmurs.
Preface:
On a recent business trip, I was lucky enough to be placed in Orlando, Florida for three weeks. Anyone who knows me is well aware that my heart and mind are often influenced by anything Disney. For instance, when I was a volleyball coach at the ripe age of 19, I received a Disney Princess poster, a Disney Prince Ken doll, and a Disney Princess picture frame for my gifts at the end of the season. See…not too heard to figure out my aforementioned excitement by this business destination.
One evening on this trip, one of my girlfriends and I stayed to watch the amazing fireworks display that occurs consistently at 9pm in the Magic Kingdom. When the first song plays, “Once Upon a Dream,” you can look around and see faint sparkles in the eyes of any girl who ever dreamed of being rescued by her Prince Charming, myself included. Within two seconds, my eyes had welled up and I had a flash of myself as a little girl where I was the princess and my prince had rescued me from the travails of the world. My heart had been released from the pulls, tears and pressure of the world and my Prince Charming was to be accredited for this release.
In a quick check back to reality, I wondered where this little dreamer had gone inside of me. She, me at the younger years, would accept no man who wasn’t kind-hearted, full of strength, passionate, and loving. And here is a thought that I am sure most will agree with: There wasn’t even an instance of this princess ever being rescued by anything less than a Prince Charming. That is what I needed and that is what I was to get. It wasn’t selfishness. It was simple mathematics. One plus one equals two. Nothing less.
Where, my question begins, does this little girl full of dreams, ambitions, and true heart-felt desires, disappear to? What in this world makes us settle for the peddler on the street who doesn’t happen to have any sense of saving us from the travails of this world? Where is the man who would stand up to the intruders in the face of sorrow and defend our hearts? When do we let go of being “the princess?”
Heart Murmurs: Moral Relativity
This book is about you, me and finding the medicine for a heart that murmurs.
Preface:
On a recent business trip, I was lucky enough to be placed in Orlando, Florida for three weeks. Anyone who knows me is well aware that my heart and mind are often influenced by anything Disney. For instance, when I was a volleyball coach at the ripe age of 19, I received a Disney Princess poster, a Disney Prince Ken doll, and a Disney Princess picture frame for my gifts at the end of the season. See…not too heard to figure out my aforementioned excitement by this business destination.
One evening on this trip, one of my girlfriends and I stayed to watch the amazing fireworks display that occurs consistently at 9pm in the Magic Kingdom. When the first song plays, “Once Upon a Dream,” you can look around and see faint sparkles in the eyes of any girl who ever dreamed of being rescued by her Prince Charming, myself included. Within two seconds, my eyes had welled up and I had a flash of myself as a little girl where I was the princess and my prince had rescued me from the travails of the world. My heart had been released from the pulls, tears and pressure of the world and my Prince Charming was to be accredited for this release.
In a quick check back to reality, I wondered where this little dreamer had gone inside of me. She, me at the younger years, would accept no man who wasn’t kind-hearted, full of strength, passionate, and loving. And here is a thought that I am sure most will agree with: There wasn’t even an instance of this princess ever being rescued by anything less than a Prince Charming. That is what I needed and that is what I was to get. It wasn’t selfishness. It was simple mathematics. One plus one equals two. Nothing less.
Where, my question begins, does this little girl full of dreams, ambitions, and true heart-felt desires, disappear to? What in this world makes us settle for the peddler on the street who doesn’t happen to have any sense of saving us from the travails of this world? Where is the man who would stand up to the intruders in the face of sorrow and defend our hearts? When do we let go of being “the princess?”
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